Well... it's cancer. And to tell you the truth, I kind of saw it coming. I mean, when not one but 20 doctors don't give you a straight answer, you start to suspect something. Right now, I guess I'm okay. I've been sitting at home by myself most of the time, so it lets me sit and sulk. The lady's from church have been looking in on me and bringing me dinner, so that is a big help. I kind of feel bad taking handouts, because I have always been one that always helps myself, and when I can, others that need it, so it hurts me to not be able to do for myself. The doctor's still haven't told me the course of action against the cancer, but she did say that radiation and chemotherapy are a definite possibility. I am still so scared that I'm going to loose my ability to have children. I have always wanted to be a mom, and to loose that would be one of the worse things that could happen. I know that God does things for a reason, but I still have that unshakeable fear looming over my head.
November 7th, 2007 - 8:30pm
Welcome Jessica,
PrestonIt is great to have you with us all. I see that you have joined the club that most would never dream nor wish to ever join. The road ahead may seem like a long one and at times it will feel like it, but you have got to keep your head up.
I created this network to give all of us affected by cancer a place to lay it all out on the line. I encourage you to use the blog space as your personal venting portal to those who truly understand how you are feeling. Myself as well as everyone else on here will be there for you every step of the way. Do not hessitate to ask us any questions you may have about this damn disease.
One thing is true, God does have a plan for each of us. Cancer is a hurdle that was put in your life to help you grow into a wonderful, strong woman. I know you feel like you are wrapped up in a worldwind of confusion, fear, and questions but I promise you it will get easier. You have to stay positive and remind yourself that you can and will kick cancer's ass.
Please look though the past blogs from other members and find strength in the words of others. If you need anything at all please ask!
Once again welcome to our network, I look forward to getting to know you. Also, please update you personal information so we can better understand who you are.
Kick Cancer's Ass,
Preston Presnell
Founder, The Life Linkage Network
02:14 PM CST